First off, I would like to apologize for my delayed posting. I told you ladies I would have this up Wednesday and I just could not get it finished for you, and for that I am truly sorry.
Lets get into it,
I finished off in the last post telling you ladies how basketball was pretty much over for me and how up to that point all I had ever really cared about was basketball. I was deeply hurt and I could not quite understand why God had taken it from me. Thankful we do not serve a God of confusion. He soon showed me why He needed to remove basketball from my life, and because He did what I was able to see because it was not longer there to distract me from my God.
He revealed to me that I was so completely consumed with sports, and that I had been for the last twelve years. I had been placing my King second to my love for sports and even after sports I would place other things before God. For awhile it would be my boyfriend (now husband), then it would be my physique, school, friends, work, money. As He began to show me these things my heart broke. He showed me that, while I was a good kid, that just isn’t enough, and how for years I had become complacent. I had to ask myself what had I been doing the last few years? How much time had I wasting time?
A NEED FOR TRUTH
As soon as basketball was removed, God started making some huge changes. As we all know college is pretty much your first time of independence, so I had to go out on my own and find a church, and not just any church a church that spoke truth into my life. I had to figure out what type of crowd I wanted to be around. Also I need to be able to discern truth for myself, luckily up to this point my leaders were biblically sound, but I needed to find new leaders and new influencers. Knowing who to choose and knowing who is speaking truth, takes getting into the word and knowing what the bible says is truth and not just taking other people’s words as the absolute truth. I also had to go out and start learning about Gods character, on my own, and that took digging into his word. Through that He revealed to me that I needed to start searching for him, that I needed to get off the fence, if I said I was a child of God, then I needed to place my God at the forefront of all I was doing. Scripture says,
You will know them by their fruits. (Matt. 7:16)
Meaning that those around you should be able to recognize the differences in my life. Since Christ had changed my life internally, this should start to reveal itself externally. My fruits would show the spirit of God working on my heart. He also showed me how to be vulnerable and how to rely on the friendships of my sisters. This made me become more transparent with those close to me and gave them ways to help me stay accountable to the commitments I desired to keep to my Lord.
Thankfully God didn’t just stop revealing my need of Him after college, He is daily showing me areas of life that I need to surrender over to him. He was able to use my time in college to open my eyes to the simple fact, that I had for most of my life been saying I was a christian, and most people probably wouldn’t have questioned it because I was a good kid. But my heart portrayed something entirely different, it showed that I had not fully given my life over to Him.
Be encouraged, we are going to fall ladies, but as I said in my last post, God will be continually changing me/us from one degree of glory to another. So this journey here on earth will NEVER be PERFECT, but we can certainly strive for it! He will always care enough to show us our brokenness and how in need of Him we are. And when we hand our brokenness over to Him we are able to grab a hold of our Freedom in Him! Remember, He is constant, He is faithful, and He is so generous. He provides us with mentorship, His word, small groups, friendships, and church to make His way known to us! My eyes have been opened I never again want to get complacent or to ever again be self-righteousness, because HE IS WHAT MAKES US HOLY AND WONDROUS!